The lengths I go to for my child sometimes surprise even me...
We spend a lot of time together. Every day, almost all day. So this week I made a grow up decision, and I took more trouble for it then I imagined, and I've a feeling it's not over yet!
After doing absolutetely everything with me, I let grandma and grandpa do the school run for a day. She was gone longer then I had expected, and it was harder then you would think. It was just a little over half of a day. I got her up, fed, and ready so I had 2 hours with her then, and I had her back before I started supper so we cooked together and I still had the bedtime routine, but I still feel as though I missed out on so much... Then I remember that I missed out on time in the car and it's not so bad.
Then it comes time for her and her daddy. She wants more time actually with him, and I understnad that, he's her dad. So when I ask if he can send an extra hour with her, it somehow becomes about me not wanting to do something, so I'm trying to get him to do it. Now I'm wondering, is it so obvious that she's rather be with me then him that it would be that surprising and imporssible to him that she want to see him?? What does that say about their relationship??
Now I will forever have missed those few hours with her, and though it is only a few hours in the grand plan, they were my hours. As long as she enjoyed them and had quality time with others who love her, I will be happy with my choice!
We spend a lot of time together. Every day, almost all day. So this week I made a grow up decision, and I took more trouble for it then I imagined, and I've a feeling it's not over yet!
After doing absolutetely everything with me, I let grandma and grandpa do the school run for a day. She was gone longer then I had expected, and it was harder then you would think. It was just a little over half of a day. I got her up, fed, and ready so I had 2 hours with her then, and I had her back before I started supper so we cooked together and I still had the bedtime routine, but I still feel as though I missed out on so much... Then I remember that I missed out on time in the car and it's not so bad.
Then it comes time for her and her daddy. She wants more time actually with him, and I understnad that, he's her dad. So when I ask if he can send an extra hour with her, it somehow becomes about me not wanting to do something, so I'm trying to get him to do it. Now I'm wondering, is it so obvious that she's rather be with me then him that it would be that surprising and imporssible to him that she want to see him?? What does that say about their relationship??
Now I will forever have missed those few hours with her, and though it is only a few hours in the grand plan, they were my hours. As long as she enjoyed them and had quality time with others who love her, I will be happy with my choice!