Here is a statement I say less and less these days. "Hello, anxiety, there you are."
There was a while were every day I lived with high anxiety levels. Blame post partum, blame hormones, say it was a chemical thing, it doesn't matter to me as much what caused it as it does how to over come it. Now I know there are ways to deal with it and to decrease these feelings, and I'm happy to say it has affected both my life and my daughters life positively. Now, rather then being worried about being worried, I can see the anxiety symptoms for what they are and therefore keep them from controlling me.
Now please don't think I stayed in my bed for weeks on end scared to move, as that was not the case. I did most things I usually did, though not as many things just for fun, but I had a functioning, normal looking life. I was just a little more tired, a little more worried, and had some sore muscles. Usually. Some days were worse then others, and some days were great. What did I learn?
1. Many moms have or do feel the same way
2. It can be beat
3. Some anxiety is positive and constructive
4. Learn to work with the anxiety instead of against it.
When I feel the symptoms coming, I can acknowledge them "hello anxiety" Sometimes it's been a long time since I felt them, and sometimes it's been just a short break. Either way, anxiety symptoms are just that, symptoms. I know what they are, I know that they will pass, and I know that they don't control me. "You can stay here anxiety, for a while, but you can't stay forever and you can't tell me what to do" Work with it. Feeling uncomfortable about taking a child out on a busy street? That may be a productive moment of anxiety, maybe wait until it's less busy out... Scared that I will fall down the stairs if you try to go start laundry? Hold on to the railing and walk slowly. It is ok and normal to fear things that are realistic, and harmful, provided you notice and respond appropriately.
If you feel your anxiety is affecting your life style, tell someone. Your medical professional can help, or they can put you in contact with someone who can. More then not allowing it to affect your life greatly, it is important to not pass on these feelings to children, or to let it keep them from living a normal life. I can not tell you how to handle your own anxiety, nor can I cure it, but maybe my experience will help you to know you are not alone, and that it is possible to control your anxiety rather then it control you.