We've been talking for weeks now. It took forever for out friend to convince me even to do that, never mind her attempt at geting me to meet you in person. I think I'm ready to meet new people, but when it comes time to actually do it I'm not so sure...
FaceBook seemed like a safe way to start. You know my friend, so I at least have some idea of what you are like. She seems to trust you, so I figured, why not give it a try. It`s just a few messages... That grew quickly into so many messages, didn't it? It seemed like you enjoyed chatting with me, so it seemed natural to move to text messages next. No it's been weeks and we've chatted almost every day, and all day too. My favorites were the messages waiting for me when I woke up, it was great to think that you thought about me so early in the day.
The days we didn't talk there seemed to be something missing from my day. That' ridiculous I know, since I've never even really met you, but I was so used to talking to you all day, and settling into habits and routines. I decided it was time we meet somewhere, face to face, then it occured to me, I like you in my phone.
See, so far if thre is something I don't know about you, I can make it up in my head. I can fill in the blanks however I want, and that wouldn't be possible if I knew them. What if you aren't the person I've built you up to be? What if my jokes don't seem so funny in person, or if I'm uncomfortable or shy? You might not be anything like the version in my head, and I like this version. I am starting to like the person in my phone, and I'm nervous of what will happen when you are no longer in the phone but are an actual person standing in front of me.
Maybe this is what technology has done. It allows us to build false relationships with people we don't know, and sets us up for disappointment when that illusion is shattered. So I must remove my expectations, prepare for reality, and let's see where this goes!