Do you ever feel like no one listens. Like, no one at all hears you when you say words? I seriously just sat down and wanted to cry because for the 3rd year straight the only thing I asked for for my birthday was cupcakes. That's it. No presents, no supper, not even a small family get together. I just want cupcakes. Maybe even a candle on one I can blow out before I eat it. For the third year in a row, no cupcakes. So when I started to feel so disappointed and upset I started to think about why. I know that it isn't the lack of sugary treats, I'm a grown adult who does the grocery shopping, cooking, and baking. If I wanted a treat I'd make them or buy them. So why am I upset over it? No one listens. I'm upset because there isn't anyone in my close circle of family or friends, who listen when I say things. It makes me feel unhear, unimportant, and like I don't belong. I know I could have made cupcakes yesterday, in fact I've been considering it all week, but I just kept reminding myself that my family loves me, they remember I was a little disappointed last year about the lack of cupcakes (or even a cake for that matter) so no way would they not get me some this year. They love me and want me to be happy, they want to show me how much I mean to them and that I matter. So when I agian didn't get any, and no one invited me to dinner, or asked if they can come here for dinner, I felt unimportant, uncared for, and alone. It's not about the cupcakes. It's not about presents. It's about knowing that somewhere out there is one person who knows something so trivial would make me happy and would go out of their way to make it happen. So as I sit here alone, in bed since 9pm on a weekend, with my birthday fading into night and ending soon, I feel so very, very, forgotten and unimportant. I am making them each a dozen cupcakes for their birthdays, and maybe, just maybe, someone will make mine next year.