There are not the usual Christmas CDs playing in my home, I've not had anyone over for treats or coffee or just a visit, I haven't spent any time with my extended family, and I don't even know where my Santa hat is, the good one with bells or my backup one for someone who forgets theirs. I haven't even planned my Christmas open house. So what HAVE I done? I hung the stockings, I did the cookie exchange, I bought and dropped off the teacher present, I decorated the living room, I got together some food I'll take to the food bank after they use all their stock for the Christmas rush, I spent time teaching my child that its more about picking something they'll love then spending a ton of money, I knitted, I picked presents no one else will pick, I wrapped with love and precision, and I hid things I bought ahead of time and have launched a search to find them. I also reminded myself and those around my that this time of year is about caring, sharing, love, and appreciation. It's not about what I forgot to do but about those I remembered to call and the happiness on their faces when I got them something they really anted but wouldn't get for themselves, or when they consider how long I spent knitting that scarf just for them and suiting their own personality. What really matters is the feelings behind the season not the shiny lights or stacks of gifts lost in the closet. I hope you can feel a little bit of how I feel this year. I have seen an outpouring of love and feel very spoiled and showered with well wishes, presents I love, and the chance to see the pride they have in doing something so great for me. I know it is the season of giving, but I've been on the receiving end of so many wonderful emotions and precious moments that all the usual activities have fallen behind. Even if I am failing at the act of Christmas I am happy to say Christmas has not failed me, and I've gotten the spirit of the season just right.